Tis not , a flight of fancy , not unknown
A grammatical sin
of cliche , uttered doubly wrong.
As it is wrong to ever split an infinitive
one can see the impending conundrum
Because no sentence fragments.
and Don`t no negatives gravitate
towards prepositions that end their sentences with.
Damn ! All explanation points !!!
and non-stop continuous redundancies , ever frustrate
most minds of men , made alliterate
As this tragedy befalls ,not the happy man
yet upon a fallible but virtuous soul
where happiness is wrest from his hold,
or rather…. sadness , brought upon his own.
KB 3/16/05 – reprinted from http://www.kasualkafe.com/poetry.htm
We spend our best years preparing for our worst. We squander our youth and health and potential for the sake of our “golden years”; The time of our lives that are generally typified by deteriorating health , limited physical ability , and a mental tendency to countdown to the end.
Instead of living for the now , we work for the future. This may not apply to those lucky few who found right livelihood and consider their work fulfilling and in accordance with their life purpose. The majority of us back into our jobs , careers and relationships unintentionally ; Unaware of the path that lead there and unmindful of the repercussions that minor choices and happenstance bear upon ones life development. Many people spend much of their time rationalizing and believing in the temporariness of their current situations , not realizing that many of the roads have now been closed to them.
I’m not saying that there is never any possibility to drastically change ones circumstances, life path, or destination, I’m just saying that they rarely do such. A detailed and exhuastive investigation into ones life would sleuth out the reasons and situations that caused someone to be where someone ended up.
Realization of this human propensity is a gift typically given only to those that have had earlier opportunities pass them by. They are generally past that idealic age , that heady time of energy, Idealism, and potential – paired with indecision , inexperience and a lack of wisdom. The attractiveness of youth is sloughed off by the pumice of wisdom. It scratches at the supple skin , slowly catching and dragging its shape downward , removing the shine of idealism and grinding potential to a nub.
Time as water , is the universal solvent. All things are powerless against its eroding effects. It resolves all things given a quantity of it.
Living for the moment doesn’t need to be hedonistic. One just needs to be cognizant of the moment , simple awareness is a step. One must be fearless in regards to making decisions that will cause happiness both in the present moment and the future. Measuring all things by this rule as well as only doing the things that are moral or useful or bring joy. Such is the way to live at any age.
There’s a new view from the wrong side of the hill. Yes , the view is changed , but this viewer has not. I do not feel all that far removed from my younger self. In fact , except for a few dysfunctionalities and questionable choices, my early adulthood self would totally hang with me. We would get quite drunk together and dip our toes into all sorts of mischief.
I will admit some of the focus is different. I used to look up and out ; I am now more comfortable to stare straight and maybe slightly to the side. I still have aspirations , but most are aimed at not falling backwards, rather then at rising to ever greater heights.
There is also the gnawing feeling that I have missed some sort of boat that would’ve carried me to an island of meaning. But I do have enough life experience and wisdom to realize that the greenest grass isn’t always the one un-trampled upon.
I have regrets , some of those have recently unfolded in the most dramatic and traumatic event in my otherwise charmed life. I had not expected this outcome , but should have forseen it, As they say , hindsight is 20/20.
Mostly , I see an uptick in life happiness at this stage of my life. Barring another traumatic shock to my existence , I expect further mastery of my volatile emotions, leading to contentment, acceptance and gratitude for this life i’ve been lucky enough to live , and hopefully will continue to do so for at least another 40.