I loathe the unscrupulous and common
Detestable is the hypocrisy of the righteous
Repugnant is the idleness of the lazy
and vile are the trespasses of the lying
I deplore the simple and close-minded
Insidious are the movements of the fanatic
Impeachable are the offenses of the selfish
and malicious are the acts of the vengeful
I respect the mind of the curious
Admirable is the restraint of the patient
Noble is the nature of the humble
and saintly are the deeds of the generous
I revere the beauty of the innocent
Exemplary are the acts of the truthful
Angelic is the behavior of the just
and wondrous are the feats of the industrious
3/2005 – Reprint from http://kasualkafe.com/poetry.htm
I just can’t shake this shitty feeling these last few days. It has manifested physically , I feel waves of it , It starts as pressure at the backs of my eyes , as if to cause tears , and then rides down to my chest , tightening it , and sinks into my gut as that pit of stomach empty feeling.
Then some moments go by , and it repeats. My thoughts are black and gloomy, not nearly the upbeat optimism and enthusiasm that I have exuded for months now.
I think its fear and anger , self loathing , regret and pessimism. It has sapped my energy. I want to blame somebody , but I think its my own head creating this for me.
I’m gonna give it a good talking to , I think. I am going to force myself to do something active , to distract myself. I don’t want to feel like this anymore. I am in control , I guide my destiny and happiness. Snap the fuck out of it , Kevin.
The Reality is that most problems are amorphous and temporary , the more you contemplate them , the more they seem solid , but as soon as you decide they are not worth your mind , one swat and they dissipate.