Cursed Sight

I look through my strangled eyes,  all I ever see is gloom
Flowers seem to fade away , refuse to even bloom
the Emptiness it fills me , like a hot air balloon
Darkness overtakes me , on a summers after-noon

I can hear the preachers say

Don’t give up
just kneel and pray

But the Voice is so far away

I heed it not
so here I stay

Under the withering sky , I wait to die – I pray to Die

My nightmares be-come real to me, in the light of day
The Hopelessness of reality , seems to light my way
I’m lost and befuddled , so I wallow here in pain
Submerged in my troubles , my will has been drained

But I can hear the prophets say

The son has came
to light the way

But where is he on this day

He’s left me here
in misery

And on through the black pitch of night , I tremble in fright – I tremble in Fright

Breathing the night through me , I exhale only blame
Hiding from light , you see, it exposes all my shame
It’s cold and dark to me , always winter always night
I see Time as it withers thee , and all else in my Sight

And I can hear the priestess say

Don’t give up
just follow me

But through my eyes
she fades away

For Beauty , I can not see

And on through the starless night , I hide my eyes – I hide my Eyes

I cover my strangled eyes , with my palms of dying flesh
afraid to see our demise, my cursed sight still left unblessed
In my heart love can’t arise , my unclean wounds still too fresh
Whoever could hear my cries , an issue left unaddressed

I hear no more voices today

I’ve given up
I’ve turned away

And my epitaph will say

A bitter man
below does lay

And on through the dead of night , I close my eyes  – I Close my eyes …

Kevin Beary – song circa 1988

Mirror

The mirror mocks me
laughing at me
innocence is gone

Distorted is my reflection
cannot take life’s rejection
how can this go on ?

Rain and Thunder
makes me wonder
but who here can say ?

Crucifixion
Life’s addiction
to whom should I pray ?

The Shattered windows of my soul
echo the emptiness inside me
reflections of my past
are mirrored before me

Only now do I know
that there’s no place to go
nowhere to hide

From this Pain inside

 By Kevin Beary 

song circa 1988 – http://khu.sh/usersong_4e2da47215324

Can’t feel you

I walk in your room , but everything’s gone , and I can’t feel you any more –

You used to say , there was no joy but me , but I don’t hear you anymore

There was a time , I couldn’t escape , but now I search for you in vain

But its too late , you walked away , and I won’ t see you any more

And now !! I ache. my tears …can’t wash away this pain
Your fears , won’t let you come back again

So now !! Your gone , re-gret , is all that I have left
So sad , we used to have so much more

There was a time when we were so close , but I can’t read your thoughts from here

Life can be hard , yet together /we/ were strong , and I can’t bear it on my own

But I am afraid , these memories’ll fade , and I won’t feel you anymore

I am afraid , these memories’ll fade , and I can’t feel you anymore