I miss love ….SO MUCH. Its heartbreaking to feel like you will never again have that feeling of being loved and loving back. I want love,  I want it so badly. And when i think of it , I think of you , and when i think of you in that way,  my heart drops and I’m crushed all over again.  Seems to be no span of time that allows me to miss it less and not feel its ache. Sometimes I feel like I can’t bear it but I still wake up every morning and start again ; to distract myself from the one thing i really want. Companionship and Love. I wish I didn’t have to experience such a harsh lesson – losing you – to come to this realization.

<wrote these thoughts in 2012 – decided to share now>

KB